Monday, 29 May 2006

A Glimpse of Something Greater

'Even in your hobbies, has there not always been some secret attraction which the others are curiously ignorant of-something, not to be identified with, but always on the verge of breaking through, the smell of cut wood in the workshop or the clap-clap of water against the boat's side? Are not all lifelong friendships born at the moment when at last you meet another human being who has some inkling (but faint and uncertain even in the best) of that something which you were born desiring, and which, beneath the flux of other desires and in all the momentary silences between the louder passions, night and day, year by year, from childhood to old age, you are looking for, watching for, listening for? You have never had it. All the things that have ever deeply possessed your soul have been but hints of it-tantalizing glimpses, promises never quite fulfilled, echoes that died away just as they caught your ear. But if it should really become manifest-if there ever came an echo that did not died away but swelled into the sound itself-you would know it. Beyond all possibility of doubt you would say, 'Here at last is the thing I was made for'. We cannot tell each other about it. It is the secret signature of each soul, the incommunicable and unappeaseable want, the thing we desired before we met out wives or made our friends or chose our work, and which we shall still desire on our deathbeds, when the mind no longer knows wife or friend or work. While we are, this is. If we lose this, we lose all.'

C.S.Lewis

Bit of Lewis wisdom there. Stunning. I look forward to the day when I finally reach the destination, when I awake from the dream to face reality. The more I think about it, the more I realise, the best things of this life are merely a glimpse of something greater...

Thursday, 25 May 2006

Meanderings...

It’s been ages since I’ve had time to think… time to muse, ponder, let my thoughts wander, dwell on something higher, and deeper and wider than the life that I live. I want to know the truth of the reality that I can’t see, and be used for a purpose greater than any I could come up with. Counting the cost-what is the cost. Losing myself… but to gain something vaster and more magnificent than anything I could find by myself or in myself. Why is it so easy to be content with the 2D, when there is full blown multi-dimensional full to the brim life to be living… I think, it’s because I know me. I know what I see. To push into the unknown is to risk all that you know, all that you love, all that you dream of-yet isn’t it worth it if I find something far deeper and more satisfying than my greatest longings fulfilled…?